Awake

Another Anti-Climax

Well...last night was the last night of Clinic for me. Another surreal anti-climax. My life seems to be full of them these days. 12 months ago I declared arrogantly, "This year will go so fast." But inside I had to convince myself to believe it. But it did go fast. It's here. "One year later" is here. Now all the things I said I'd think about in a year are here, knocking down the doorstep to my mind. "Get your license." "Figure out your work schedule around day classes." "Start your practice." "Learn X, Y, & Z". Etcetera, ad nauseum. So now I'm "happy" because I'm supposed to be happy...but I've got this contradictory glaze over my eyes and this self-defeating heaviness that retaliates against my will to get up in the morning. And now I'm torturing my gentle readers with philosophical musings about my 'so-called-life.' :) Oh brother.

Not to worry, a break is near. I have a two-week term break starting next week. I'm headed to Seattle and Lacey at the tail-end of this weekend (Sunday and Monday) to confer with my brothers and sisters-in-law and spend time with my nieces, which is always healing to the soul.