Awake

Stress, deferred

I've been so excited about applying for law school I forgot that I am struggling to increase my time on 2 major sections of the admissions test! Ack! And last night, there was a small emotional landslide as I was stressing out over LSAT analytical reasoning questions to the point of withdrawl into late-night AMC movie watching.

Well, some of you know that I am transitioning to my gmail e-mail account. I've decided my .mac account is no longer an expense I can justify. Part of the transition is to unsubscribe from e-mail lists and in turn subscribe under my new address. One of the lists I "unsubscribed to subscribe" was Bruderhof's Daily Dig. In their unsubscribe confirmation e-mail, they consider the possibility that one might unsubscribe because they don't fully appreciate the content provided, so they offer up Breakfast with Blumhardt as an alternative. Even though I was in actuality just changing the e-mail address I was subscribing under, I was intrigued by the suggestion and promptly subscribed.

Late last night, in the midst of my "unwinding," I received the next day's installment of Breakfast with Blumhardt. The first line read, "As a warning for each one personally and for all of us, I say: keep the Lord before you; then he will remain at your side, and you will not be shaken." This was an echo of what I knew in my heart even in the midst of my little breakdown: had I set the Lord before me in taking the LSAT? I knew in even asking the question, I hadn't. This morning I resolved to take along with me on my train commute my recently neglected One Year Bible to see what the Word was for today. Indeed, reading about King Hezekiah dealing with threats of the Assyrian king and God's powerful response really put my law school admissions test into perspective.

So I am grateful for how I was led back into the Word today and how I was reminded to put God ever before me. He, after all, is way more qualified than I to fight my battles.

Thanks, mysterious, compassionate, warrior: Jesus.