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shawn time 14.04.20..10.30.04
stream.1
some stream-of-consciousness about the past couples of weeks...
all of which can/may be extended into longer posts later.
-travelled up to seattle to accompany a good friend PJ Trudeau. He spoke at a middle school camp. I prayed for him. There may be more of that. It was good.
-have met with a counselor twice now. I am pretty sure everyone needs therapy.
-tutoring is tough. Not the knowledge or the teaching. But the schedule. Been thinking again of how to grow the business. Office space in LO?
-PNCA is still a great experience. The teaching is good. I wish I could continue to unlock/tap into my creativity. Being there demands it.
-finished a 6-week Flash animation class. Flash is cool. Need money to buy Flash. It is cheaper with educator discount. But I still have $0.
-House of Prayer is starting another week of 24-7. Why am I not there more? My Tuesday nights down there have been good, though. And after my session, time with Roy is fulfilling.
-Tom thinks lots of kids are going to show up for trick-or-treating. I am trying to make that possible. But our location may prohibit that reality. Sorry Tom.
-I wish tutoring clients would pay their invoices. I wish I could pay my bills.
-I may write a letter to all churches in the world to stop being dumb. Because I know everything.
-in 2 weeks I turn 30.
-birthday WISH list: digital camera, iPod Photo, laptop, music gear. Or maybe just some nice birthday greeting cards.
-I haven't been listenig to a lot of music lately. I need some new bands. Radiohead is still as stinking good as they were a few months ago.
-tell everyone about my blog.
shawn time 22.11.15..10.20.04
drawing.3
shawn time 23.51.14..10.16.04
drawing.2
shawn time 15.47.01..10.15.04
anyone read this thing?
Blogging is weird.
Why do I blog? I ask myself that all of the time.
I like creating. That's one reason.
To be able to create something that is immediately on screen in front of me is enjoyable.
And, the possibility that someone else may (or usually, may not) see what I am creating is enjoyable too.
Blogging is a journal-like experience for me. I know that when I post, it is hardly ever writing. I do not write often. I think that if I kept an actual, physical journal, it would not be just writing. But a mixture of pictures, writing, doodles, etc. The benefit here (blog) is that it offers so much more as far a posting digital media. I can not post a flash animation (as cheesy as mine are so far) in a paper journal. I can not download digital pictures into a diary. It is much easier to link to someone else's idea that I think interesting than to write extensively about that idea with pen and paper.
I see the value in a physical journal, but I also know that I have never been motivated to keep one. I am motivated to blog, to update the blog, to post various thoughts and pictures and drawings and other peoples ideas, etc etc. To communicate how I see things happening in my life, and to be able to do that through various media is a huge motivator.
And, again, although I see blogging as a good thing for me in and of itself, I am pretty sure that I also want others to see it too. Somehow I want to be able to create, or participate, in a community that uses and views blogging as important and meaningful. I also want to allow those that do not blog a connection to my world. I want to keep in touch with the larger world (granted it is through a computer).
What is larger than this web world? That this site is accessible to nearly anyone (connected) in the world is a powerful idea. I know that the probability that "anyone" would stumble into my world, and see that world as at all interesting is very very small. Do I desire others (everyone) to see my ground breaking, earth shaking blog? Of course.
Maybe the same way I desire to win the lottery.
So, if you have stumbled onto my little world "schmetzger", make sure you leave a comment somewhere. It will encourage me. I will keep me posting. It will make me feel like I am a lotto winner.
Blogging is weird.
shawn time 15.03.53..10.15.04
motorcycle
Last night, I had a dream that I bought a motorcycle for $1800.
I have never ridden a motorcycle.
I do not have $1800.
shawn time 23.26.33..10.14.04
drawing.1
shawn time 01.00.13..10.09.04
If I Should Fall Behind
We said we'd walk together baby come what may
That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we're walkin a hand should slip free
I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me
We swore we'd travel darlin' side by side
We'd help each other stay in stride
But each lover's steps fall so differently
But I'll wait for you
And if I should fall behind
Wait for me
Now everyone dreams of a love lasting and true
But you and I know what this world can do
So let's make our steps clear that the other may see
And I'll wait for you
If I should fall behind
Wait for me
Now there's a beautiful river in the valley ahead
There 'neath the oak's bough soon we will be wed
Should we lose each other in the shadow of the evening trees
I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me
Darlin' I'll wait for you
Should I fall behind
Wait for me
+++Bruce Springsteen+++
shawn time 22.44.53..10.05.04
portland.2
driving up burnside
